I look into a hospital room. I see a very sick man.
He is so sick that the staff is worried about his very survival.
He seems completely unaware of how sick he is.
I look into a hospital room.
I see a very sick man.
He is so sick that the staff is
worried about his very survival.
He seems completely unaware of how sick he is.
It was a great shock to me when I learned that I had cancer. Even though I had been sick a lot for a few years, I did not think it was serious. My wife, Siska, believed something was very wrong, and urged me to go to the doctor for a checkup. The doctor examined me but she did not find any problems. She sent me to the laboratory for a blood test and that evening they called. I was told I was extremely ill, and that I should ask someone to drive me to the emergency room right away. My blood test showed that I was so sick I might collapse while driving. I had trouble believing this.
Siska drove me to the emergency room. The very first thing I did was ask them to take another blood test to confirm what they had found. Shortly after, they told me that the result was the same . . .
I was immediately admitted to the hospital. This was a new experience for me. The only other time I was hospitalized was when I was fifteen, and I was there only a couple days for a minor surgery. This time my life was at stake.
My doctor was meticulous about confirming my diagnosis and he did a bone marrow test to be absolutely certain. I was given two choices: either five straight days of chemotherapy, or go home and return once a week for six weeks. Because of my condition and the advanced cancer, the doctor recommended that I stay in the hospital for the five straight days of treatment. I wholeheartedly agreed since I wanted to get better as soon as possible. For me this was definitely the right decision.
The powerful medicine they gave me to help me recover also made me feel worse. Although I was managing to eat three full meals a day, I lost close to twenty-five pounds in a few weeks. I knew that my body was going through a very intense time and eventually I would start feeling better.
Siska came to be with me every day and she became my lifeline. I also played our New Equations Music continuously, which was so soothing that I never once thought about death or dying. I knew it was important to rest and let the medical staff take care of me, and I patiently waited to see what would happen. I had no idea how long I would be hospitalized. When I think back over my experience, it actually feels positive. I found a way to surrender into my new reality.
The medical staff was very careful with me because I was so close to transitioning. Luckily, I was assigned excellent doctors who were able to help me recover. The nurses and support staff were all very nice and friendly. Over the weeks that I was there, the music that Siv Roland, Siska, and I, had composed drew many of the staff into my room so they could listen to the music, as well.
As soon as I felt well enough, I began taking three or four walks a day through the corridors. It always felt good to be moving and I thoroughly enjoyed the people I met. Whenever I was hooked up to an IV, I rolled it along with me.
The longer I was in the hospital, the more I realized that in many ways I was starting a new life.
I knew Siska and I had made new and important discoveries for humanity. I had always been a goal-oriented person and worked hard. My urge to give everyone the magic of New Equations was strong, but then I began forgetting to pay attention to how I was feeling and how my body was doing. I became seriously ill.
After my experience coming so close to death, I had to stop everything I had been doing. I stopped hurrying. I had to take time to more deeply experience myself. I needed to make a change.
A question that I asked myself was: What do I need to do differently to keep this illness from coming back? As my body gained strength, one of the things I started doing was the New Equations Spiritual Postures. This created a calm and balanced state of being for me. I quickly got the feeling that if I could keep this state of being, I would be more likely to recover and stay healthy.
Since becoming ill two years ago, I have been moving into the next chapter of my life. The closer I can come to living the rest of my life from an even more spiritually guided point of view, the better my life will be. When I began this process, I did not really understand that this was the only way for me to survive.
Alan Sheets is the Cofounder of New Equations and New Equations Music.
Reading your words in the strength of being vulnerable is a true gift to me. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you Betty ❤️
Blessings to you, Alan. You’ve made such a difference in so many lives, and your sharing is continuing the learning for us all.
Thank you so much Laurie! It’s such a wonderful journey we are all on 🙂
Just scrolled down and read this, obviously much later than written, and later than many others responded to it.
Alan, you are so gifted and special and I have learned through the New Equations ST’s (or portals now), so very much. It continues to inform how I experience and think about others. The experiences and memories I have from your and Siska’s workshops are certainly among the most memorable and vivid and meaningful of my life.
I care about what’s happening to you and how you are experiencing your “new life” and would love to follow your thoughts, so please keep them coming.
Thank you so much for you comment Virginia! We are so touched to hear how much your time in New Equations meant to you. Alan has written two other blogs about his experience, if you would like to check them out! He will definitely be doing more writing for New Equations in the future!
After three years of prayerful wondering and hoping for your full recovery, it is so good to hear from you. Your exploration of the 9 Soultypes and the surrounding discoveries of New Equations contributed to significant growth and change for me and so many other. My fondest memories are from the training events that you created over the years. They were so much fun. I look forward to reading Part 2 of your Journey of Recovery.
With best regards, gratitude and intentions for your complete healing,
Thank you for your kind words Paolo! It’s so nice to hear how much the New Equations training over the years has meant to you.
Dear Alan, thank you for your openness and for revealing yourself so vulnerable to the public. At the same time your experience reveals a humility towards your own knowledge. I have a lot of respect for this. You encourage me when you write at the end of the first part: …the rest of my life from an even more spiritual guided point of view, the better my life will be. When I began this process, I did not understand that this was the only way for me to survive. … that it is time for me/us to stand by this essential experience. Love and Peace Hans-Peter
Thank you for your wonderful Soultype 5 words Hans-Peter! Great to hear from you 🙂
Thank you Alan for sharing your story. I’m sure many people have wanted to know more
about the details of your recovery! The importance of your discoveries have truly benefited
so many of us who you have Soul Typed and having you explain how you have used the
Postures in your recovery encourages all of us to keep doing the Postures while listening
to such wonderful music! Thank you so much! Continue to Be Well!
Love and Light,
Thank you for reaching out Phyllis! Yes, the postures are so helpful in so many aspects of life.