Alan’s Journey 

Alan’s Journey

Part 3

Before I got sick, I was running two miles in twenty minutes every day. When I started out again, I did not time myself. Later, when I did pay attention to how fast I was running, I felt different about time. I didn’t care how fast I was running. Instead, I paid attention to how I was feeling.

Every day of my new way of life has been an opportunity to move forward into a new way of being. Every day I become more aware of the changes that are going on inside me. If there is a lot of change going on, my run tends to be slower. I consider that to be a very good sign.

I discovered that what is most important is to be as calm and relaxed as possible and let my soul, spirituality, and physicality, do whatever is needed to help me heal.

Alan Sheets smiling

I no longer have a plan in mind. In the past, I always had a goal. I always knew where I was heading and had many ideas about how to get there, but now I realize that I do not have any idea where I am going. This was so new and different. It still is. 

I began to see that each day and each night brought a new set of opportunities. Whenever I woke up in the morning disoriented or confused, I knew that it was a good thing. I had to not try to make my disorientation go away. All I had to do was stay with the confusion. Soon something new would present itself.

 My tendency had been to observe people and watch their words rather than interact with them. I am slowly learning how to sustain a magical connection with others. When I pay attention to my breath I can more easily take in and breathe with the ever-changing moment. I can then turn my attention to my soul and follow its guidance. As I immerse myself in the sensory input of the present moment, my mind can take in all that I am experiencing and integrate it with my current state of evolution.

Alan Sheets smiling outside

Alan Sheets

Alan Sheets is the Cofounder of New Equations and New Equations Music.