A woman dives head first into a technicolor ocean that resembles a galaxy

For years, I have struggled with almost every aspect of my life. Even with all the understanding, knowledge, experience, and success that I previously had with the principles of manifestation and attraction, these last many years I have struggled with loneliness, unhappiness, financial stress, and frequent dissatisfaction in my day-to-day life.  

Then, one recent morning after doing a New Equations practice, as I was reflecting on a conversation that I’d had, one of those huge epiphany moments happened, and all the puzzle pieces fell into place. I had the realization that on a very fundamental level, I did not like myself. I did not like my selfishness and self-centeredness, or the way I was constantly comparing and competing for a better place in the contrived hierarchy.

I recognized that I have been internally creating and imposing rules for how everyone should act and behave. And when, of course, that did not happen and people didn’t behave as I had decided they should, I used it as an excuse to “check out”. Either consciously or unconsciously, I would just go away and become non-present — in relationships, situations, roles, with tasks. I would leave things undone for long stretches of time or only accomplish what I absolutely had to in order to survive at a very basic level. To say that this was an eye-opening experience would be a tremendous understatement.  

Having this new awareness makes it possible for me to now see and choose a different path. This new path is one of hearing and being guided by my soul in each moment. I get that this is not something that will just happen. It is a moment-to-moment practice of a fundamentally different way of being. But I know that from this place, I can create and shine light on endless spiritual possibilities to help bring about change and forward movement for myself, others, and humanity.  What’s not to like about that!

Alan Sheets smiling outside

Laurel Avery

 Soultype 7

Laurel is a student in the NEATO Pathway 3 – Assistant Spiritual Researcher program. She is exploring planet Earth, inspired by its spectacular beauty while searching for her next landing place. She creates children’s picture books and 3D animated art to expand the wisdom of the Soultypes in the world.