I needed some downtime, and I wanted to explore how life would be for me without social media, internet, books, music, phone . . . would I be bored? Would my mind go crazy? Would I be able to sustain the vibration of peace and silence, or would I need to look for other stimulation?
The more I withdrew from all these activities, the more I saw absurdity and illusion. So many things felt fake, untrue, dull, automatic, empty. My body often could not handle what I perceived. I wanted to withdraw from what I experienced as huge deep emptiness in peoples’ lives.
BUT, nevertheless, there were so many moments where I experienced the joy of being in this world, and of this world—moments of connection when looking into someone’s eyes, seeing behind automatic conformity, and seeing the magic of their souls. I allowed myself to be the beauty of my own soul and feel the incredible privilege I have in my life. When I am able to discern and see the absurdity of the state of our world, I am free, and can love and give my love without reservations. I can observe, smile, and move on.
My downtime was nothing but a blessing. Nature supported me all the way, more than I ever thought she would do . . . she was my internet, my support, my news, my sparring partner, my book, my energy-giver, my protector, my wisdom-giver, my future, my healer, my eye-opener, my strength, my joy. She was full of humor and peace and was always open to receive me and share her love with me.
And when my downtime was over, she gave me the most beautiful rainbow with a promise:
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly and dreams really do come true.
My dream is a world where people meet with ever-increasing love from their souls, touched by the beauty of our magnificent Earth!
I wish you a rainbow—and may your dreams come true!