The Night I Fainted
The Night I Fainted
To share about this profound experience, I need to take you back to the year 2011. I was on Gozo, a small island in the Mediterranean Sea, where I was leading a spiritual workshop for a group of women. It was the evening before returning to Germany, and we had some time to play with cards that taught flower wisdom. Each of us took a card from the deck. The one I pulled pictured a white flower called Flame of the Woods and represents peace in the cells. On the front of the card was written: The indispensable condition for the body’s progress.
Betty’s deck of flower cards
We wanted to celebrate before we left in the morning, so we took a walk to our friendly local restaurant. The weather was strange—there was lots of lightning but no rain. The island is only 8 x 12 km in size, so we were surrounded by water and there were literally hundreds of lightning strikes around us and the air was loaded with electricity.
I ordered the soup of the day, which was green pea soup, nicely pureed. The cook had drizzled the soup with white cream which made a pattern that made us giggle like crazy because it looked a bit like the picture on my card. And even more, we greatly enjoyed the words peas/peace in the cells. It was like a cosmic joke and we were laughing our heads off.
But then, suddenly, I felt miserable. My body did not seem to work anymore, and I needed to go outside to get some fresh air. I stood up, tried to walk, but couldn’t. My legs would not carry me, and I fainted. At least it looked like I did, but I was very much aware of what was going on around me. My friends carried me outside and laid me down in front of the restaurant, slapping my face to wake me up. Several times I tried to regain my strength, but my body denied every attempt. I heard my friends talking about calling an ambulance since my pulse was disappearing, but with the power I had left, I shook my head No! This was terrifying for everyone, but my strength slowly came back, and the owner of the restaurant drove me to our farmhouse where my friends took good care of me.
I was worried about falling asleep because I kept feeling like I was losing consciousness, but yet strangely at the same time, I somehow felt very much awake and clearheaded. A new world was opening up inside me . . . I started feeling the consciousness of my cells. What an experience! I somehow saw and felt this consciousness IN my body; but parallel to this, and at the same time, I also experienced it OUTSIDE of my body. It is difficult to explain. I was aware of panic in my cells due to the disturbance in my body, but this disturbance was OUTSIDE of me . . . IN me was absolute peace. I could feel the consciousness of my cells. It was extraordinary and breathtaking, and yet it seemed so normal. The date was 11-11-2011, and there I was lying in bed at 11 pm with lightning flashing all around me, while receiving an incredibly beautiful experience.
What a gift! The consciousness of my cells—which before had been only a concept—was now deeply felt. It was embodied knowledge. I was aware. I was clear. I was profoundly in my body consciousness.
I wondered why this happened to me, and where this would lead me. Since then, many new avenues have opened up. One avenue my soul showed me is New Equations. Here I found a place to be in direct connection to the vibration of my life force in my body, and the light and consciousness of my cells—continuously!
New Equations supports me and helps me to understand, and own, my experiences on a deeper level, and gives me a stronger foundation. I am certain that doing the Spiritual Postures, and other New Equations practices, will lead me, and all of us, to a new way of being and healing.
I feel tremendously gifted to have gained a deeper understanding of ways in which our bodies are connected to the evolution of the universe. I am so grateful that New Equations gives me a place to continuously deepen my experiences. Here I can expand my consciousness, my understanding, and have an open avenue and safe foundation. Step by step, and with ease and joy, my body can grow into the newness of my being. No more fainting necessary!
Take a look at this beautiful picture of a body cell. For me, it is like a garden where I can walk and look at all the different colorful shapes and forms—loving them, watering them, being with them.
And yes, you may have guessed, I am a Soultype 8 🙂
PS: I was on the plane back to Germany the next morning.
Source and credit for cell photo: Transformation of the Cellular Landscape through a Eukaryotic Cell, by Evan Ingersoll and Gael McGill. The most detailed model of a human cell to date, obtained using x-rays, nuclear magnetic resonance, and cryoelectron microscopy data sets.